Decision!!

Dear Blogger,

The problem is still here ): Damn I wish I could quit this stupid job already. At first I thought I would just do it for one month..then Sis' told me having a job isn't the problem about not having tme to do Amway.

She said if then I would accomplish something before this time 'cause I was 100% free before. She's got the point. I agreed with what she told. I should get another job before quiting the old one because money isn't everything, but I wouldn't want to ask from my parents all the time ): It's time for me to grow up and stand on my feet.

Gosh, I'm just so afraid of not making it in time though I know the solution of this problem is just go out and do the work. At the end of the day I feel like have no energy left, and I wanna go home and do things I want to. There are times I wanna give up, but I always know I cannot do that......

You know what? Forget it!!! I'm quiting this job and I don't care about anything anymore. If having another job besides Amway because I haven't accomplished anything is what I should do than SO BE IT!!!! I'll get new job at least the one that I'm happy to go to. More money would be awesome and better too :D Why keep doing thing that doesn't even care to make you happy?? That's it!!! I'm quiting this job. I really am going to.

My life should not be this miserable. I own this life and I will live this life as I want her to be. I'm the one who have plan for her, I draw the future for her, and she will walk it the way I want her to. NO ONE ELSE HAVE THE RIGHT EXCEPT ME!!!!!!

First week & 1st day of Working

Dear Blog,

I got a job as a receptionist @ some hotel near my house. Because I’ve never had any hotel work experience, they sent me to another hotel they own for a week. I thought it would be fine because I would be able to gain some experience, and who know I might like working in the hotel. How can I put this together? I guess.....it’s not what I expected. Surely, I didn’t expect it to be like I want it to be 100%. I just didn’t think it would be THIS HORRIBLE :-x 

The first week was somewhat I liked though the Hotel was so far away. People were friendly enough and I didn’t feel so bored of not having things to do. At least, I got to help them answering the phone and welcomed the guest. At this hotel, they have more working system which makes everything neat and much easy to make some work done. The only reason that makes me don’t want to work there because of the distance and the fact that I have to stay at the hotel. If I move there, it would be so disconnected for me because I don’t know anybody around there….how could I expand my business???

Here, the hotel near my house, is much much worst!! The only thing that’s good about this hotel is the atmosphere, beautiful huge room, gorgeous swimming pool, and a semi-privacy that you can have. You’ll be happy to stay here as a guest, but not as employee ): Working here takes all my time away. They told me I might have to work afternoon shift 2-11 PM very very often …“means everyday if no change necessary” I don’t mind working hard, but I mind if I have to waste all my time doing nothing instead of going out and do my Amway work!!!

You cannot go anywhere though your heart is screaming just to get out!!!

It really is such a waste of time with paying less money than I need. For your information less than 10,000.- per month wouldn’t cut for me to stay. Besides, I feel like it’s…it’s sucking all my energy away. My friends told me I should choose work that makes me happy while I’m working; if not then…nothing would be successful. As a result, I decide to give them one month and I’ll quit this job. I need to arrange the time so I will be able to do Amway work as I have planned.

Only 4 weeks left before September starts. I want my success to be a gift for my mom…and also it could mean that my chance to meet Bill is closer to reality *hopeful*  What I learn from Law of Attraction is that “I need to be happy and feel good in order for God to help my wish come true” Right now, I barely feel any good )': Somehow, it’s difficult and I know that if it keeps go on like this. One day I won’t be able to force myself to fight and eventually give up on everything…all my hopes and dreams. I might just let it be...let my life be. It can suck as much as it wants, and I wouldn’t do anything about it. THAT is what I fear the most.